With Heavy Hearts We Collide //Jayden

[JADE REESE]

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[JAYDEN NICHOLLS]

-----and swing life away

[atrb=border,0,true] Right now Jayden’s stress level was through the roof. He had let shit just get way out of control and it was all his fault. Of course, as he threw the covers off of his body he refused to look at a certain bunk and just slipped on a pair of clothes. He was not even going to shower, not that he wanted to shower anyways. He wanted to get away from this place before he shot himself in the face. And again, not that he could do that because he did not have a gun but he could drown himself or something. As of right now anything was better than the fear that was plaguing him right now. He pushed those thoughts from his brain and went to the back and brushed his teeth since bad breath was definitely not attractive. Plus yellow teeth were not attractive either so hey, two minutes out of his day was fine with him. Then he spat out the tooth paste and then rinsed his mouth out and wiped his hands on a random ass towel. And with that he went and found a pair of socks and threw on a pair of shoes and then called it a day. He did not even changed his shirt, which might be gross but today he was not feeling up to changing, sue him. He had no idea what he was going to do though. He could go do his actual job but that really did not feel like it. So he shook his head and stepped off the bus as he shrugged on a sweater. It was not as cold here as it could be but still, he was chilly enough to have to wear something. Maybe it was because he got cold really easily. So the boy pushed his dark hair out of his face and started to walk wherever his feet would take him. He had no preference on where he wanted to go or where he should go. Maybe he should go get food but he was not hungry in all honesty. So he sighed and continued to walk around the grounds, just minding his own business. He should have brought music along with him but he was not thinking about that. Well that really blowed. So he shoved his hands into his pockets and found himself wandering around the stage area. He really had no business being here, honestly he had no idea why he was even here. His feet had just kind of taken him here without his knowledge so whatever he guessed. The good thing about all of this was he was able to slip right past security. He had no idea what they were doing but they were not really paying attention to their jobs and that was fine with him. So he walked behind and saw someone sitting on the edge and he smiled because he knew who had hair that color. Not a lot of people really sported the platinum blonde anymore you know? So he sat down next to her and then looked over and smiled before bumping his shoulder with hers. “What are you doing?” he asked after he looked back at the empty space in front of him. He had never wanted to perform in front of people, it made him really nervous. He was the kid who could barely fly through an oral report without talking really fast to get shit over with. And when he had a Spanish presentation he cheated and wrote his speech on the label of his soda bottle. So performing definitely was not in his stars and he was fine with that.

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[JADE REESE]

[/b] she told him with a shrug reaching for her camera and snapping a quick one of him in response. Then she reached up to push her light hair back with a grin. ’’What are you doing here?’’ she questioned glancing at him then at the audience once more. She could sense he was stressed even without looking at him it was obvious something was really bothering him. She had always been good at reading people and she prided herself on helping people through their issues and reminding them just what they had to live for. Jade brought her blue eyes to Jayden once more tilting her head slightly with a small smile as she examined his features she had almost forgotten how good looking he was it had been awhile since they had talked or spent time together really. ’’Whats been going on?’’ she questioned softly reaching for his leg and squeezing it playfully as she looked at him.
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[JAYDEN NICHOLLS]

-----and swing life away

[atrb=border,0,true] Jayden looked over at Jade and smiled at the girl. She had to be one of the sweetest girls that he had ever met and he was really grateful for her friendship. She’d never judge him right off the bat and she would probably give him the most helpful advice that anyone could ask for. And if this was another life he could probably see himself crushing hard on the girl. She was beautiful, that much was for sure but his heart belonged to another. So he looked down at his feet, his legs swinging away and then he went to look at his thumbs. They were clearly just so interesting you know? And he then told himself that he was a dimwit for waiting so long to hang with her. He would probably consider her a good friend, since she had never really complained about him. Besides he always found her fascinating. She was purely innocent to him in a sense. She was kind of like, well he was not sure how to describe it but she reminded him of a fairy. Which was never really a bad thing because fairy girls were pretty attractive have you seen the tattoos of them? Not that he’d ever really get one tattooed on him, that was dumb. But they were still pretty. When she answered his question she then took a picture of him and he blinked, not really expecting that. Well hey whatever, hopefully it was a funny picture. Jayden liked taking funny pictures and he was not sure why. So he smiled and then looked at her camera for a split second. “Did you get any good ones? Besides mine of course, it’s the best one there.” he gave her a goofy grin as he asked the question. Sure, sometimes Jayden could be quite full of himself but it was all in good fun. He knew that it probably was not the best looking one. It was probably the most obnoxious one just because he probably looked like a fool. But did he care? Well, maybe a little bit but as long as she kept them for her own eyes then he probably would not mind. She was really good at what she did though so maybe she could just keep his picture for her own eyes? Was that an option? He really hoped that it was. She had then asked what had been going on and he looked away, wondering if he should really tell her the whole story. Maybe she could give him advice you know? He had no idea what to do but talking about it in the open was dangerous. What if someone sneaky was standing behind him? There were a couple of gossip blogs that liked to post shit about people and he honestly was not wanting to be a part of one. So Jayden shrugged and then let out a sigh before looking at her and pushing his dark hair out of his face. “I think I fucked up big time. It’s colossal.” he told her in a soft voice, trying to figure out how to word this situation without being blunt about it. “I slept with someone I shouldn’t have. Someone who is taken and not by me.” he said, speaking kind of fast and he had no idea if she understood him or not but he was not repeating it. Not right now at least.

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[JADE REESE]

[/b] she told him with a grin nudging his shoulder playfully with a laugh. She was of course teasing him but it didn’t surprise her to know that he was what most girls on the tour found attractive and she really didn’t blame them he was a very good looking guy that much was not hard to admit at all.

Jade swung her legs carefully next to his bringing her gaze back onto the empty seats of the audience with a small sigh. She looked up at the sky where there was hardly any clouds and the sun was currently shining and she couldn’t help but wonder to herself what God’s problem was. After all he had created such a beautiful planet and he gave them beautiful days like this and yet he plagued the world with war, homelessness and sickness it wasn’t fair and it wasn’t right. In fact she wasn’t even sure she believed there was a god surely if there was he would have taken better care of the world right? She thought so at least. She listened carefully as Jayden responded to her question turning her gaze to him and pushing her thoughts about god to the back of her mind for now. Her eyes scanned his features gently as he spoke judging his reactions and his words he had gotten himself into quite the predicament that much was obvious. ’’Well that is quite the situation’’ she told him softly reaching over and squeezing his arm before focusing her gaze on the sky once more. ’’It’s Lily isn’t it the girl?’’ she asked him softly though she really didn’t expect an answer. ’’I see the way you look at her it’s like magic, and I see the way she looks at you Jayden there is definitely something there but neither one of you want to hurt your friend’’ she paused glancing at him and offering him a reassuring smile. ’’With feelings like this though it isn’t just going to go away and I think you both know that you’re just too scared to admit it. Give it time I’m sure things will work out and yeah Julian might be hurt but if he is truly your friend he’ll take the time to heal and move on too’’ she spoke softly before looking back over at the empty seats with a shrug biting her bottom lip slightly as she let her words sink in.


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[JAYDEN NICHOLLS]

-----and swing life away

[atrb=border,0,true] It was nice, the relaxation that he was getting right now. It had been a while since he just sat down and relaxed with a friend. Sure, he sat down with plenty of friends but he was mostly putting on a show. He was hiding everything and that would be what he would do until he felt that everything was back to right, and nothing would probably ever be right again. But it was really nice to not have a care in the world right now. Stress had been plaguing him of everything in the past couple days and he hated it. He hardly ever slept now and it was probably showing and he hated when he was on the bus. He always wanted to take off and never go back sometimes. So that was when he would go home with someone and then leave the next morning, or a few hours later depending on if he could sleep or not. He should really just start taking to going to hotels since this was getting really exhausting you know? He was exhausted and he hated it. He smiled at her when she gave him sarcasm for an answer. Well wasn’t she a funny girl. He had forgotten that she could really make him laugh, like a genuine laugh. Jayden wished that he had not forgotten that but some things in his life were so crazy that he was forgetting pretty much everything at the moment and he hated it. “It’s a gift with a curse.” he told her with a wink. Of course he was no ladies’ man, at least he pretended not to be. Sleeping around had never really been his thing until recently but it made him feel better. No wonder people were sex addicts; it was a very comforting thing. But he swore to himself that he would not become one of those. Because it really fucked someone up, or so it seemed and he figured that he was fucked up enough or the entire tour at this point so he did not want to add fuel to the fire. But she would have probably taken some really nice shots. “When you get them developed you should let me see them. I bet they’re all wonderful.” he said, getting a little more serious now. Although he really was curious about her pictures, he bet that they were beyond beautiful. People really had to have a real art for that kind of this and Jayden did not. He could barely point and capture pictures on his phone it’d be worse on an actual camera. When he told her that he was in a predicament he was kind of afraid of what she might think. Sure, Jade probably would not judge him like most people but still, this kind of situation was delicate. If he had been on the receiving end on the news he would have told the person that they were just really dumb and to forget and move on with their lives. And this was why Jayden could never be a psychologist, he felt like he would convince a person to commit suicide before he could help them. But still, waiting for an answer was kind of nerve wracking for him. And she was the first person that he told about it without it being spilled so there was also that. He felt the butterflies in his stomach start to flutter and be wanted to twiddle this thumbs while he waited for a response. This was killing him, the waiting. And then when she said it was quite the situation he nodded at her, not saying anything. It was probably the most fucked up situation ever if you asked him. And it amazed him that she had guessed the answer so quickly. His light eyes immediately snapped over to her face while she looked at the sky and he bit down on his bottom lip while she explained her reasoning for it. He should have known that he would be giving away signs. He needed to stop it, he needed to control his god damn emotions so nothing bad happened. And he had forgotten that she was so wise. He really was a bad friend wasn’t he? “It just can’t happen. And I’m trying so hard to just forget her but I can’t. I haven’t talked to her in ages and it’s killing me.” he started to pick at the fabric at the hem of his shirt before he let out a soft laugh. “I probably sound pretty pathetic right now.” he hated that he sounded like that but god damn it was the honest to god truth. He just missed his best friend.

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[JADE REESE]

[/b] she replied gently with a smile poking his side playfully with another laugh. She pushed her long blonde hair back with a smile letting her blue eyes focus on him gently. She really did love spending time with Jayden in fact he was one of the very few people she felt she could trust on this tour even though she tried to trust everyone it wasn’t always that easy especially since as soon as someone got to close she pushed them back in fear of them finding out about her. But after getting to know Jayden she realized that she wouldn’t mind if he found out about her illness because he might be one of the few people who actually understood. She blushed at his compliment and pushed her blonde hair back glancing at him then down at her feet with a small grin. ’’Well I have tons of pictures all over the place if you ever want to see them you are more than welcome to come over’’ she told him with a small smile.

Jade figured that Jayden was probably surprised that she knew so much about his situation and even though she had never really had the problem herself she still wanted to try and help him the best she could. She hated seeing people upset or hurt in anyway especially her friends and especially when it was such a simple solution though he and Lily just hadn’t figured that out yet. It was strange to witness really because It was obvious to her that Jayden was head over heels for this girl while she was sure Lily didn’t even have an idea of how Jayden truly felt. The two of them needed to admit it to each other and take the consequences later, not everyone was going to end up happy but they had to accept that if they were meant to be they couldn’t change that and the world probably had different plans for Julian. It broke her heart though to hear Jayden sound so sad and she reached over touching his hand gently squeezing it. ’’Jay you can’t just forget someone you love it’s impossible and your probably hurting her and yourself more by trying to do so, you need to show her that you really care because right now she’s just confused and the more you avoid her the more she’s going to think she never mattered and continue to make the wrong choices by being with Julian when she isn’t even really in love with him’’ she spoke softly locking her fingers with his and squeezing once more. ’’You aren’t pathetic your sweet I wish that I would have been lucky enough to have a guy who loved me as much as you love Lily I would be truly blessed and she is very lucky even if she doesn’t realize it yet’’ she whispered softly bringing her gaze to him once more and offering him another smile.


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